Bottom line is
marriage is hard.
It's really fucking hard.
Just two people,
slogging through the shit,
year after year, getting older, changing,
it's a fucking marathon, okay?
So sometimes you know,
you're together so long, that you just stop seeing the other person.
You just see weird projections of your own junk,
instead of talking to each other, you go off the rails
and act grubby and make stupid choices
which is what I did
And I feel sick about it
Because I love you guys and I love your mom
and that's the truth.
Sometimes you hurt the ones you love the most,
I don't know why
You know, if I read more Russian novels, then...
Anyway..
I just wanted to say how sorry I am for what I did,
I hope you'll forgive me eventually.
Thank you.
